Guess who's back? ;)

Oh my lord. It's been forever bloggers. Like since April, wow. I have so much to tell you allllll:) Like, I'm so happy with life. Like freakin' ecstatic. My classes this school year are amazing. Sooooo easy. Who said junior year was the hardest?!?! Cause I'm gonna punch them in the face. I have a boyfriend. Weird right? :P He's pretty tight. Like plays guitar and sings (music major) cool. Be jealous. Annnnd he's like a perfect gentlemen! Howwww sweet. Right now, this second, I just realized how cliche my life is becoming, bleh. I like to be different, bloggers. I enjoy not being like everyone else. I think that makes me "cool." HA. Well, I will think of something better to write about and we can catch up later. For now, I have to get back to my History class. Boooo. Peace, bloggers. ;)

my love:)

I am absolutely, completely, utterly, and totally in love with the jonas brothers. I have been since the 8th grade. I don't love them for the reason most little kids do. I don't love the "OH MY GOSH IT"S THE JONAS BROTHERS THEY'RE SO HOT!" side of them. I love the side that writes the most beautiful music. Their music can make me feel happy when I'm sad, they bring me laughs when all I can find is tears, and they show me love when all I see is hate. I always feel better after listening to my favorite jonas brothers song. And i though for my quote I would leave you to the lyrics to the chorus of my favorite jonas brothers song to give you the same inspiration they bring me. :)

Worlds are spinning round
There's no sign of slowing down
So won't you take a breath?
Just take a breath.
People change and promises are broken
Clouds can move and skies will be wide open
Don't forget to take a breath

......don't forget to take a breath bloggers:)

that little green monkey on your back.

I have not blogged in a VERY VERY long time, for that I am truely sorry. I have had one thing on my mind recently. Jealousy. Everytime I see a couple walking around holding hands and the only thing I think about from that moment on is how much I wish I could be them. It's not the fact that I like the boy because thats not what I care about at all. I just want a boy to look at me like that, care about me like that. Why does that never happen to me? Always everybody else.. Why can't I find a boy who cares about me just as much as I care about him?? And why does this giant green monster hurt so bad?:(

Tell me that bloggers.

"Jealously is that pain which a man feels from the apprehension that he is not equally beloved by the person whom he entirely loves.."

ponder.

Don't worry, Be happy:)

I have decided i'm done with being sad. I'm going to be happy and not let others bring me down. I'm sick of being sad, anxious, and stressed. I'm going to do my best in everything I do and if that's not good enough to dang bad. I'm sick of being stressed about school. In 20 years am I really gonna remember that I failed an algebra 2 test?! HECKK NOO! I'm no longer gonna let relationships consume myself, what's the point?! I want happiness and nothing less. Good Bye sad depressing Kelsey! Hello happy fun and entergetic KELSEYYYY:) Rainbows and butterflies BBABBYY:) I'm going to rock my life to the fullest! No more stress! I'm rolling with the punchessssssss:)

QUOTEE:) "happiness is not the absense of problems but the ability to deal with them!" :D

BEEEEE HAPPPPYY BBLOOOGGERRSS:)

the definition of my life at the moment is unhappy.

i feel like no one understands me. i feel so alone all the time. i don't feel like i have people to go to to talk to ever thing about. i used to but he's obviously gone, different story that is exausted already. i want a companion. i want happiness. i want to be happy again. i'm always depressed, angry, and stressed. is this what being a teenager is supposed to feel like? i want to love life again. why is that so hard for me to do? i have been listening to a lot of christian music lately trying to find my way back to where i was. what happened to the perfectly happy, God praising, and mellow girl i was a year ago? can i please have her back? please? she's been warped into this depressed, dark, unhappy child.. i need help.

quotes ladies and gentlemen, "the cheif cause of failure and unhappiness is trading what we want most for what we want in the moment." and "unhappiness is not knowing what we want and killing ourselves to get it" Ponder those.

why can't all boys be nick jonas?

what's the point in love? all it does is makes you hurt even more than you would without it! i hate the thought of it. last night i attended a wedding and it made me think even harder about how crappy my love life is. i've been hurt so many times it's ridiculous. i just want someone to love me that way. i just want him to love me as much as i love him..

short blog i know but here's my quote.. "when you love someone and they break your heart don't give up on love, have faith restart.."

i wish every guy in the world had the mind of a jonas brother...

Thoughts of love are stupid.

So as i'm sitting here in the library computer lab of my school a thought came across my mind. Weddings. This thought ran across because of a wedding I will be attending Saturday. I wonder about my "true love" I wonder who he is, where he is, what he's like, and just everything about him. I wonder when i'll meet him, where and how.

The next thing I wonder is if I will ever find this "true love." Apparently we're all supposed to have one or something but i don't think that's true. I think this because what about all the cat lady's in the world and all the stereotypes that come with them. Did their mates get randomly hit by a car riding their bike when they were 12 or something? This is my greatest fear in life bloggers. Not finding my soul mate in life and becoming a cat lady for the rest of my life. Is that one of your fears?

Once again I want to leave you with a quote to think on. I think it's becoming my trade mark! "Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses you on your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you're wearing sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you about how much he care and how lucky he is to have you.. the one who turns to his friends and say's, 'that's her'.." I'm looking for you...