Don't worry, Be happy:)

I have decided i'm done with being sad. I'm going to be happy and not let others bring me down. I'm sick of being sad, anxious, and stressed. I'm going to do my best in everything I do and if that's not good enough to dang bad. I'm sick of being stressed about school. In 20 years am I really gonna remember that I failed an algebra 2 test?! HECKK NOO! I'm no longer gonna let relationships consume myself, what's the point?! I want happiness and nothing less. Good Bye sad depressing Kelsey! Hello happy fun and entergetic KELSEYYYY:) Rainbows and butterflies BBABBYY:) I'm going to rock my life to the fullest! No more stress! I'm rolling with the punchessssssss:)

QUOTEE:) "happiness is not the absense of problems but the ability to deal with them!" :D

BEEEEE HAPPPPYY BBLOOOGGERRSS:)

the definition of my life at the moment is unhappy.

i feel like no one understands me. i feel so alone all the time. i don't feel like i have people to go to to talk to ever thing about. i used to but he's obviously gone, different story that is exausted already. i want a companion. i want happiness. i want to be happy again. i'm always depressed, angry, and stressed. is this what being a teenager is supposed to feel like? i want to love life again. why is that so hard for me to do? i have been listening to a lot of christian music lately trying to find my way back to where i was. what happened to the perfectly happy, God praising, and mellow girl i was a year ago? can i please have her back? please? she's been warped into this depressed, dark, unhappy child.. i need help.

quotes ladies and gentlemen, "the cheif cause of failure and unhappiness is trading what we want most for what we want in the moment." and "unhappiness is not knowing what we want and killing ourselves to get it" Ponder those.

why can't all boys be nick jonas?

what's the point in love? all it does is makes you hurt even more than you would without it! i hate the thought of it. last night i attended a wedding and it made me think even harder about how crappy my love life is. i've been hurt so many times it's ridiculous. i just want someone to love me that way. i just want him to love me as much as i love him..

short blog i know but here's my quote.. "when you love someone and they break your heart don't give up on love, have faith restart.."

i wish every guy in the world had the mind of a jonas brother...

Thoughts of love are stupid.

So as i'm sitting here in the library computer lab of my school a thought came across my mind. Weddings. This thought ran across because of a wedding I will be attending Saturday. I wonder about my "true love" I wonder who he is, where he is, what he's like, and just everything about him. I wonder when i'll meet him, where and how.

The next thing I wonder is if I will ever find this "true love." Apparently we're all supposed to have one or something but i don't think that's true. I think this because what about all the cat lady's in the world and all the stereotypes that come with them. Did their mates get randomly hit by a car riding their bike when they were 12 or something? This is my greatest fear in life bloggers. Not finding my soul mate in life and becoming a cat lady for the rest of my life. Is that one of your fears?

Once again I want to leave you with a quote to think on. I think it's becoming my trade mark! "Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses you on your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you're wearing sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you about how much he care and how lucky he is to have you.. the one who turns to his friends and say's, 'that's her'.." I'm looking for you...

teenagers in outer space land.

In advance I appologize for not blogging yesterday!:) Now I'm stepping onto my soapbox. The thing that erks me the most is teenagers of this time, MY generation. There's one word to describe us, STUPID. We NEVER think before doing. You hear every day of another girl who is pregnant, another kid who got wasted beyond belief last weekend, or a kid who got I.S.S. for doing some random stupid thing in school. I don't understand why kids do all of this stuff and half the time don't ever have one ounce of guilt after doing it. When I think of all of this stuff I think of the show Secret Life on ABCfamily; if any of you bloggers have heard of it?... you probably have. This show is all the rage of teenage girls and I have NO idea why. It shows stupid teenagers doing and saying stupid things. I have NO idea why someone would comit an hour every single monday night listening to the word sex at a minimum of 25 times. Words can not fathom how much i hate my generation. We are stupid, senseless, NEVER have our own opinions, follow what the IN thing is, and are never independant. I leave you with this quote bloggers, "Fashion is what you adopt when you don't know who you are." by Quentin Crisp. Ponder that.

Heartbreak is always bitter, never sweet..

Today I have been pondering the meaning of life.. Why people come along and make us feel safe and at home.. Why those very same people break your heart and leave never saying two words to you again. That person who you felt so safe with for so long, that person who says they'll always be there for you no matter what just say "Your better off without me. I never should have led you on in the first place." Why do people have to be so mean and hateful like that? Why does life have to be so mean and hateful like that? I leave you with this quote "Relationships are like glass. Sometime's it's better to leave them broken then try to hurt yourself putting it back together.." Think on that bloggers...

LIFE...

What is life? What is its meanings? Those are the thoughts I am pondering on this frost biten morning as i'm preparing to go to church this morning. I wonder what my specific purpose is in life and what I'm meant to do. More importantly I wonder what God's purpose in my life is. I wish i could just know show i could have a step by step plan. I know everything I'm doing or I did has a purpose and it was suposed to happen but why is it that sometimes it feels so wrong? Feels like I screwed everything up? Let me know bloggers. What are your thoughts?